It Feels So Right!

What a beautiful day! Some days I wake up feeling like my life makes sense, and today was one of those days. I’m ready. That’s the first time I’ve been able to say that, but I’m really ready. I feel prepared, I feel empowered, and I feel everything I always thought I would feel when my graduation day became an upcoming event and no longer a distant hope.

I’ve changed so much in the last three years. I’m at a place in my life where I don’t allow people to get to me. It’s a wonderful feeling. I have my friends, my rocks, and my confidants – the people that know me and understand what I’m all about. I have my family who loves me unconditionally and pushes me to greatness, and I have myself. I love the person I’ve grown up to be, and I’ve never been more proud of who I am. I’ve expelled drama from my life, because frankly, I just don’t need it. I walk around and see sunshine, flowers, life and love happening everywhere. Why would I ever allow negativity to bring me down? This is the place I wanted to be at when I graduated college, and I’m there. That’s how I know I’m ready to say goodbye.

I went to the bookstore and purchased my cap, gown and tassel for graduation. Ohio State must be playing some cruel joke forcing their graduates to sit in the football stadium in June wearing all black, but that’s a discussion for another day. Thirty-one dollars later, I arrived home and went to hang up my gown. I cheated for a quick second in the same way a woman cheats before her wedding day by slipping her wedding dress on. My cap and gown fit like a glove, and I literally got chills up and down my body when I put it on. Didn’t I just graduate high school? That was yesterday right? How in the world am I doing this all again? But it feels so right.

I was chatting with my best friend M on the phone earlier, and she said she actually might cry at my graduation, because it is such an exciting moment. That’s a big deal coming from M – she doesn’t cry at anything! After she stated this to me, I laughed and thought about the giddy emotional wreck I will be that day as well. I’ve worked so hard, and it is all going to pay off in thirty short days. I spoke with Mom today as well, and she seemed so happy when I told her I purchased my cap and gown. Having my family and best friend at my graduation is making me happier than the actual event of graduating. I know that they are all so proud of me, and I know that they are all coming to support me, and it means the world. All of the assignments I have yet to finish are not causing me stress anymore, because I know that each one I cross off my list gets me one step closer. It feels so good to be prepared.